Hi really dont know where to start...
Been with my bf for 5 years now. Lived together 3 engaged 1.
It's been a Rocky road living together as I have 3 grown kids and its been hard blending families. But we got there..so i thought!
My bf suffers from depression and what he says adhd but never diagnosed hes 45 now. He took himself off anti deperssants in Jan and wont go bk on them as says dont need them anymore...its a no go zone!
Basically when he gets stressed or too much for him he lashes out..at me...last week things got too much ,moneys tight , he left his decent job cos he didnt like the way he was spoken too!, next job they sacked him as he had no computer knowledge so now with agency work. I work full time 40+ hours and been paying eveything to cover that he wasnt working I been doing my best .even paying his £600 car finance loan!
Anyway suddently watching TV he snapped..he said somthing about money and i said it's ok calm down we sort, it all be ok..we are in it together! ..then he went mad saying it's a joke we in it together,hes under the thumb,my kids talk to him like shit , he has no respect and told me to.leave as didnt like my attitude...I was in my pjs...it was late..he said he wasnt listened too not respected his house had enough ( hes on tenancy and wont put me on it as he believes if i do i will kick him out as i got kids, even though there all adults) he did this about 2 years ago...threw me out as everything got on top of him.but we worked threw it....anyway I went sit in the car for 2 hours and cried i stayed to let it cool down.it was about 11 pm. Then Went bk in..I had to say sorry to him to be let in. i said I wont talk to him like that again( even though not sure what i did say as i was supporting him) he said he give me last chance to buck my ideas up and sort myself out..i said ok..and i had to sleep on sofa for two nights....then suddently heacted like nothing happened! Since then it's beenlike that night never happened....we are due to.move next month...yet again only in his name....but hes talking like last week never happened...I am totally confused and worried if this will happen again..I am late 40s not a child and feel exhausted.
Yes I do.love him of course I do..but what did i do so wrong to be thrown out.. ..