After a failed marriage and then a failed relationship I’m feel like there is not a great deal of joy in my life. I think the experience of Covid has also been a factor.
I feel like my life is all about duty (work, doing the best for my kids, trying to keep the house running). I want to do all these things but I want to be happy too.
My career was once very fulfilling but has become a negative environment, I’m changing career in a few months to what will be a demanding but hopefully much more fulfilling role.
My social life has not returned to pre divorce/Covid levels and I’m not sure why, although money and time plays a part. I do spend a lot of the time that I don’t have the kids on my own and I’m not sure why I don’t schedule more things in or what they should be.
I walk every day which used to keep me feeling happy and sane but now it feels like I’m often processing stuff/working things out during this time. Although I think I do need to do this.
I’m lonely at times but unwilling to put myself out there, I’ve chatted on apps but can’t seem to get passed this stage. Perhaps I’m not ready as I have it come to terms with hurt from the past.
How do I get the joy back in my life?