Partner of 12 years, 2 children (5 and 1) his drinking has been increasing for quite a long time but has shot up rapidly in recent months. He's unpredictable when drinking as most people are. I've caught him pouring a shot of rum into his coffee in the morning. Binges are starting earlier and getting longer.
Anyway it all came to a head this weekend. He spent all Saturday night in the pub while I looked after the kids. Turned his phone off so I couldn't contact him. Came home in a state. Last night, drinking again. I told him
I was going to leave him and I had to protect my children from this. He broke down, apologised, swore he would stop drinking.
Today, same, said he's worried about his own drinking, he promised to stop. Went to play golf - encouraged by me, nice active pursuit to take his mind off things. Came home smelling of drink. He's had two pints (he says) at the golf club. Can't seem to understand the problem.
I'm devastated. I have to leave him don't I? I can't have my children growing up in a house with an alcoholic. I'm so hurt that he lied to me, he had no intention of not drinking anymore. He cares more about having two fucking pints than he does about keeping his family together. Now my children have to grow up without their father around.
I love him so much. He's always been so strong, so loving, made me laugh, he's my soulmate. And he's thrown it all away and ripped me apart. I have no idea where to begin to cope with this 