Hi, I met my fiancé over 15 years ago. We became pregnant after a week knowing each other and he offered me money to have an abortion which I refused. I obviously kept the baby and as the pregnancy progressed he wanted to be a part of our lives and we became a couple. Fast forward 15 years and 3 beautiful children and we have had a mostly happy relationship with a few hiccups. Hiccups being that there have been rumours of him cheating and one confirmed occasion of him having a gang bang. This was almost 10 years ago now and we attended therapy and worked through it. Marriage has never been a big deal for me although my parents have been together and happily married for over 30 years. I would like to have the same surname as my kids and after giving birth to our DS my then boyfriend now fiancée proposed. We were set to marry the year of the pandemic but obviously had to cancel it. Since then I've been wondering if this is really what I want or if I'm just doing it because it's the done thing. He's a fantastic dad to our kids and it would be great to show the world we made it and have a lovely get together but at the same time he has been quite a poor partner here and there over the years and weddings are a lot of money.