Am I normal

[Bailey48]

To feel like this ? I am 48 years old and in a right ole pickle !! I had a lot of relationships 4 years /7 years then 1 year relationships and have been in love once or twice but I don't think with my partner of 13 years .. I have never wanted to rip his clothes off or be totally in love but he is a kind and loving man .. we have 2 children of 8 and 6 but I always have gone through stages of not wanting to be with him for around 6-7 years now and it is for about 3 months at a time ... I am back in touch with my ex and he seemed keen bit backed off as I think he knows I am confused but I feel so bored with life and I know it is not my mental health (had a breakdown ) a few years ago .. I just keep thinking if the past when I was around 20 with my ex and this is not the first time !!! I just don't know why ... My ex has ghosted me for some reason which may be a blessing in disguise but I am so upset ... I suppose I feel like billie in sex life I suppose I want to just feel like I am not going crazy and if just a more a mid life crisis

You sound perfectly normal to me.
Maybe your OH feels the same? You may may be looking at the past through rose tinted glasses, I had often wondered about an ex I was madly in love with, bumped into him and he was nothing like I remembered..all of those youthful naive feelings had gone plus he had a beer belly and receding hairline.

Only you know what's right for you. I'd talk to your partner about how you feel ask him where he stands and where he sees the relationship in 10 years time (maybe don't mention the ex though).

Thanks my ex is actually still good looking but could be a total prick ... I am so gutted he has ghosted me but i will get over it