Hi, I was wondering if anyone has any advice or could help me out, it's kind of long so if you don't want to read I understand. I have been with my husband for 20 years and we have an 18 year old son together. About 20 months ago my husband caught covid and was poorly, as it was quite new then he was sent to a covid hub and was told he did have covid and was given antibiotics for his chest, he wasn't too ill and we thought he was recovering. About 3 weeks in he went upstairs not feeling good and he said he kind of lost all sound, knew there was something wrong with his heart and tried to dial 999 but passed out. He did come round from this but didn't tell me this had happened to him. About a month later we were in his parents garden for a birthday, there was just 6 of us and he got drunk which is out of the ordinary for him as he is really fit and looks after himself so he never really drinks, after we got home he was annoyed that we had left their house as he hadn't wanted to stop drinking. He then threw the remote control and his phone at me and said I didn't give a crap that he had wanted to stay out kind of thing. He then said I didn't give a crap about him and he was going outside to kill himself in the garage. I quickly ran upstairs and told my son to stay upstairs and ring my husbands mother straight away(they only live a few doors away)I rang the police. Anyway, my husband lay on the floor in the living room begging his dad to take him to hospital, which they did. The police didn't end up coming into the house I spoke to them outside while his parents were with him. He went to A&E and was assessed quickly and they sent him straight home and said they thought he was OK and not suicidal and that he just wanted to come home to me and our son(aged 17). I know then he didn't sleep for 3 days straight, we were sent to see someone from the crisis team and they came to the house every other day for nearly a fortnight. My husband has always been a very quiet, reserved type, it takes me months to get anything out of him, he is a very private person and nearly every visit from the crisis team was dealt with through me, he hardly answered a single question but that is nothing new, he is always like that. Anyway here we are this much further forward and a few months ago we started having problems, in reality it has probably been since then. he still can't sleep, I can honestly say that since it happened apart from when I have begged the GP for some sleeping tablets he has never had a night of unbroken sleep, sometimes for days at a time. He says he just lies awake getting annoyed at me and our son for any little thing we might have done. I have always had depression and it hasn't changed but he says now that he can't deal with it or with our son at all. He went out on Saturday evening and came back at 4am and told our son that he didn't want to be with us anymore, my poor son woke me in tears to tell me this, I just left my husband downstaits as I knew he was drunk and didn't want to argue with him, when he got up the next day he didn't remember saying this to our son. When he finally got up I told him what he had said and he said sorry he didn't mean it. We had a lovely day on Monday but but yesterday he didn't really speak to me at all. He rang today during his lunch break and I said to him I think your depressed and he proceeded to tell me that he just wants to separate. He said he's struggling with me and our son and has been for 18 months and wants to leave. So I told him to leave but that he has to be the one to break the news to our son, even though I will be there, he can tell him that he wants to leave because I'm not the one who wants to break the family up. Since January he has started going out again with old school friends from where he grew up and is enjoying himself he said. I may sound like I'm mean and cold by telling him that he has to tell our son but why should I when I'm not the one who wants to leave. I am in bits and have cried all afternoon, I feel broken into a million pieces and I keep saying to him that he had been through a lot and is most likely depressed but he refuses to speak to anyone about it and says he doesn't want us anymore. Please could anyone help me as I don't know what to do, he has just text right now to say he is on his way home. I don't know what to do, and our son is going to be devestated. He begged me on Saturday night to get his dad to stay and because he has stayed up until today our son thinks everything is ok, my heart is broken but mostly for my son, please can anyone give me any advice. Thank you.