Why do I think of him?

[Richtea2]

Finally seems like this guy backed off from me and focusing on situation like I am mine. We known each other years and it's feels like a loss. You think I would be happy but just feel another one gone. Nothing physical happened just suppose I got emotionally attached to him.
Today I was actually hoping he walk in my work place today. I was thinking he doing this and that it's mother's Day. Maybe I am over tired but each day he is on my mind. I don't fancy him or love him. But maybe it's that he last one from my past. That time when I was a mess to go.
He was always checking to see if I am okay but really I was never interested in him like that. I feel him letting me finally go just feels weird. That last conversation that was face to face was the end.
I feel completely lost a bit now.
Hopefully as days go by he does completely leave my thoughts. But each day until then he be there.

Time heals, eventually.

Every day is a day closer to getting over this feeling. You don't love him or fancy him, so it's just that you'd got used to having him there, knowing he was an option. He's done the right thing walking away.

Try to distract yourself with work / hobbies / friends, and this feeling will pass.

@layladomino

Time heals, eventually.

Every day is a day closer to getting over this feeling. You don't love him or fancy him, so it's just that you'd got used to having him there, knowing he was an option. He's done the right thing walking away.

Try to distract yourself with work / hobbies / friends, and this feeling will pass.

He definitely has done the right by walking away.

This conversation we had I thought about it loads of times. It didn't play out the way I thought it would but glad it was something that was best him and for me.

I told him when you met I was totally of the rails. He said I wasn't but he didn't know I was broken in pieces. I was looking for men for comfort.
I couldn't with him because of his situation and he did lie to me about. But he invested in so much time in me. He was alwayd contacting and I know I did the right thing by not given in.
This we are FRIENDS from him was never going to be just that. He was fooling himself and me.
I think he got jealous too with stuff he said to me which was kind of personal. So I suppose I should be happy today I am free of him.
I did grow to like him as a person not romantically. I really don't know that's what is confusing.

Thank you for advice