Struggling with anxiety

[strugglinglife]

Hi all!

I’ve had anxiety for a while and it’s magnified over the last few months I think due to work stress. It also spills over in my relationship where I worry about lots of things and unintentionally being the mood down sometimes when I’m overwhelmed and sad.

I’ve taken my first steps towards therapy, going to the doctors and making myself better.

DP has been incredible. We had a very honest conversation where he admitted that sometimes he feels drained and tired from worrying about me, and because we are always talking about it, but he said he understands as sometimes you have to give more than you take in relationships (bless him) and he doesn’t think less of me at all.
Yesterday he even drove down to me (he lives 30 minutes away) to support me before my first therapy session, waited for the hour and picked me up with hot chocolate for us both. He wanted to hear how it went.

He’s honestly the loveliest person and I feel so guilty for when I get down and sad. Sometimes I do just feel in a bad mood and anxious and I hate that I probably bring the mood down. He is such a good lovely supportive guy and I really don’t want to lose him?
I am someone who’s very open but I think sometimes I talk about it too much and I feel bad that the focus has been on me

Perhaps once the therapy kicks in you will be less inclined to talk about it so much with DP as you will have an outlet during the sessions and it's something you can talk about anyway.

Your DP sounds lovely. When you are feeling good try to do some special things for him to show that you really appreciate him.

Thanks so much. I think I am someone who is open and always wants to talk about it, without realising the effect it has on DP! He really is so lovely and I’d hate for him to resent me

I have depression and anxiety I’m medicated, but on my dark days I want to climb inside myself. Recently changed jobs and I’m away from my friend who I worked with, who knows everything about my MH, my suicidal thoughts, now I’m just walking through my job, I couldn’t give a shit if I don’t chase up an email until the next day, it’s no big deal!
I want to be back with my friend. I want a hug from them. I want to be in the safe space I have with them.
I won’t see them for a few more weeks and whilst messaging is great it makes me sad that it’s all we have now.
But if I hadn’t changed jobs I think the consequences for me personally would have been worse.

We all need support, we have support we’re lucky. Hug your husband a little tighter x