Please advise.
I'm in a relationship of 18 months and am a divorcee, mid forties.
I've done. Lot of work on myself and am engaging in psychotherapy at present.
My issues stem from emotionally absent and stressed parents in a house where addiction was a factor for many years.
I blame myself forEVERYTHING.
My therapist believes from speaking to me, that this is because I was always blamed for everything growing up as I wasn't an easy child by all
Accounts.
Every man I've lived through my life has left me either through distance, death or rejection. This includes
My Dad , My brother, my husband.
I have met this truly great and very patient man.We dote each other
But his patience must be wearing thin.
I have found it so hard to trust him.
I'm always looking for ways to catch him out, so to speak.
He feels he can't do anything right, that I'm trying to find holes in his stories and generally mistrusting if him and his intentions.
He said he doesn't know where he stands with me sometimes.
I really dont want to sabotage this as it's a good relationship and has a future but lease advise me