I'm feeling so pissed off right now as the weather forecast is great and I thought I'd be away for a few days in a hotel somewhere.
It was my 60th birthday in January and due to Covid, DP and I did nothing. I caught it a few days before him and wasn't too bad but too exhausted to celebrate. He was quite rough, worse than me. We went out for brunch and a short drive but too ill to do more. DP was disappointed and promised he would make it up to me. I said I understood and not to worry. So I asked if we could go away for a few nights and he agreed we would when he was better.
I've asked him a couple of times since if he had any thoughts about my birthday and he's always said "when the weather's better" or he hadn't any plans. I asked again yesterday because the weather's warmer next week and we are both self employed so can take time off. Excuses again. He doesn't want to go away last minute, I'll be moaning about paying my half etc.
Honestly, I feel like I'm begging for my own birthday treat! Because this was a big birthday, because I was feeling depressed about it, because I spent £200 on his (lockdown) birthday, am I right to be resentful? Also, he gave one of his adult kids £200 for her birthday in January and the other one had a party and a night in a hotel for her 30th - both of them married but he has no problem giving them treats all the time (think expensive meals in restaurants, a car etc). I am not jealous but feel undervalued and I'm always the bottom of the pile. I think I deserve more after being together for 15 years. We don't live together but see each other 4 days a week. He's expecting me to see him tomorrow and will sulk if he doesn't have sex but I'm just seething quietly inside and wondering what to say to him.