My ex gf and i, broke up like a year and half ago, we have a 4yo son together, and we were together for 11 years, we broke up because she wanted something else, change country and all that and i couldnt follow her, so i stayed here with my son, at first, i was really mad, i couldnt undertsand how someone can left her son behind, and i was really hurt about the break up, so i started chaning my life for good, started gym, reading, and started to look after my health and what i eat, i literally changed my whole life, but here i am, still thinking about her every day, i just want the pain to go away, its really frustating, because this is messing with my personal life, i havent been able to look for women, or going out feels nonsense, seen my kid is like seen her, and on top of everything, her mom is the one helping me with my son because i couldnt find anyone that could help me, i know i wont be able to forget her, but how can i erase the pain and the worry ?
first i told her to never call me or contact me if it wasent about our son, like 5 or 7 months passed and we barely talk, like once a month, these time i was really good, i was feeling like i had control of my life, but sudenly like 6 months ago, she started to text me, and asking me more personal questions, like after she take out son with her what i would do, where i would go, she once told me if i had a gf here in my country then thats understandable to stay but if not i should be near my son, why would she touch personal matters ? why she reviving the pain? its really hard having a son with someone i just want to forget for ever, but i now know im stuck with her for ever, but i just want the pain to go away, the non stop thinking, i cant look at a pic of her without feeling intimidating
any advice is welcome, and sorry for my english is not my native language