Shouldn't have trusted him

[Galablue]

I knew it was going to happen, I knew as soon as I agreed to try again it would end in disaster.
I didn't put everything I had into it as I knew I would end up being left AGAIN!

He wasn't for me, but I was lonely and it was nice having him here to have a laugh, to sleep next to each other after watching a movie.
But deep down I knew he was always going to go back there, I wasn't the Ow I was the one he left to be with the Ow many moons ago, we have dc as do they and that was apparently his reason, their child! as if our children don't really matter.

So I'm back here, two weeks since he's been gone and I haven't shed a tear. Tonight I'm feeling it I want to cry tears have been pricking my eyes all day. I can only do it once after that I have to stop as I can't throw myself back into that black hole of self pity, hate, hurt and anger.

But I don't want to cry over him I want to be strong, not like I was the first time when I begged and pleaded with him, almost overdosing because of the way he treated me, I'm not that woman anymore.

I know he didn't really want me or love me anymore, truth be told I didn't want him either, but it still hurts.

Am I wrong to give myself tonight to feel it all then move on like the amazing woman I know I am that deserves to be treated better?

Oh dear.

He's a shit isn't he?

Dust yourself off and think yourself lucky that you have a choice now unlike the OW who is stuck with the cheating SOB

You can still be strong and have a cry. Sometimes releasing those tears do a huge amount of good.

You can have a cry, it's not crying over him, it's over the lost potential.

I'm sorry he's not who you hoped he would be...but I think you're well rid of him.

I couldn't even allow myself to cry I felt as though i was letting myself down.

He called late last night I'm assuming he wanted sex, I didn't answer and gave him hell today so now all I am is angry

I don't think people can just decide to get it out of their system and get it over with.

Take as long as you need and get any help you need.

You cry if you want to. You are grieving the relationship that you wanted.

And only have contact about the children, nothing else. Move on from it.