I feel like I must be awful to be around.

[Zed122]

I have teens and a young baby. My partner works long hours.

My family don't bother with me anymore, I barely hear from them. When I do ring my mum she says "oh I haven't heard from you in a while" I always have to call her and the conversationrevolves around her most of the time. On a couple of occasions I haven't mentioned the kids or the baby and she hasn't asked after them. She goes out lots with other siblings but makes excuses about spending time with me. Siblings just call me to moan and offload. I can't remember the last time anyone in my family called and actually asked how me or the kids are.
I have no friends really. The ones I do have don't bother with me unless I make the plans yet are all over social media with other friends. I don't bleat on about my problems when I see friends, I'm smiley and jokey.
I'm trying to make some mummy friends but obviously that takes time.
I'm feeling very lonely and isolated. Going out is becoming really difficult for me. Dp has been good at picking up the slack at home. I know I'm probably a bit depressed but I think a lot of that is down to the fact that (other than my partner) it feels like noone cares. Its really hurtful. People who I've been there for in the past just seem to have completely forgotten about me. I just feel like there must be something really wrong with me

Do you see each other socially? Could you invite them round for Sunday lunch, have a nice face to face get together?

I don't think I have the energy to cook my whole family a roast and deal with the mess and chaos it would create, especially with a newborn waking every few hours at night.
We used to see lots of one another but these days unless I call/make the plans no one bothers with me.
My mum does loads for my siblings and their children. Just feels like now the baby isn't a fresh newborn no one is interested any more. I'm not asking for childcare or favours, it would just be nice to be acknowledged, checked in on now and again.
Last time I spoke to my mum she said I sounded down, I told her I was, that I was getting no sleep and was exhausted from all that I have going on. She hasn't made any effort to call me since or see if I'm OK.
I haven't seen them since the beginning of last month but none of them live more than 15/20 mins away in the car.

I guess I just wanted an anonymous moan. I know there's no changing it unless I continue to make all the effort, but it doesn't make it hurt any less.