I'm 29 weeks pregnant currently with my third baby. I've had the most horrible pregnancy with hyperemisis that has been never ending, PGP and other ongoing health problems. I have hated every part of this pregnancy, it has been extremely tough, we had just moved back to my partners home town before we started trying for a baby, where I am alone and isolated. the health conditions have meant that I am even more isolated.
He was the perfect partner before this pregnancy and I absolutely adored him and he adored me and we've been so excited about this baby. the start of the pregnancy he was fairly supportive, but this just kept dropping and dropping. He's not once tried to understand what I'm going through, he's never been to the emergency hospital trips I've had to go to completely alone.
Then, last Thursday it all came to blow and my depression hit a head and i had a complete breakdown. not once has he even attempted to get me help that I need (I have but felt i really needed his backing), he ended up just phoning the police and told me I was trying to murder his baby. There wasn't an ounce of compassion towards me and my vulnerable and desperate state, at one point he called me disgusting.
I came home later that night after a mental health assessment and being referred to help to find him gone, he had up and left me.
so now I'm trying to figure out my way around my crumbling mental health and the fact that someone i loved so much and would do anything for could do something like this when I'm at my worst point in my life.
I just can't get my head around it.