Bad relationship with Parents.

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Anyone else never liked or had a bond with their parents?

I'm 50 and still haven't got over it, both my mother and father were cold and we never had any relationship except as people being forced to live in the same house. I'm sorry to say that when they passed away it felt like a huge release from a ball and chain, but too late to change the past .

My father was cold and a Bully. Very handy with his belt. I left home at 16 and never saw him for years. I did visit him for a number of years before he died but there was never a bond. He ruined it for himself.

My mother settled for my dad and resented him for it.

She had, I believe, undiagnosed pnd after I was born and instead of it being dealt with, she rejected me and punished me for being unlovable. She felt resentful that she'd had an ugly child (I looked like.my dad) who couldn't be loved. My dad was miserable and she was a bully. He took his frustration out on me physically. I was scared of him.

He apologised to me and made an effort to be a supportive dad by my late 20s but it was too late. We got on ok but there was no bond.

No bond with either of my parents. They divorced when I was 18.

I went no contact with my mother 10 years ago. He died 4 months later.

It's taken its toll...