Does it matter that I can't imagine being in a relationship?

[thinkfulmoments]

I was out today and couldn't help but look at all the couples and wonder how on earth it all happens.

I'm 29 and I've never had even a casual relationship. I just can't imagine anyone there holding my hand, or living in my flat. I'd feel so silly telling anyone that I had a boyfriend.

I am very lonely. I think I am touch starved because I can't remember the last time I had a hug from anyone, but the idea of being close to someone makes me so anxious. I think I would do it all wrong. OLD hasn't been bad, but I've never had a date with anyone that I've felt relaxed enough to try kissing.

have you had multiple dates with the same person? it's totally normal to not feel like doing that with someone until you begin to know them a bit more and get relaxed in their company.

It’s because you have been single for so long you are use to it, I’ve been single for 5 years and can’t imagine ever meeting anyone now however others seem to meet people very quickly and moving in within 5 months!

3 was the most dates with the one man. I was just starting to really like him but then he ghosted me.