Hi, everyone
I am a 21 year old woman
English is not my first language. So, pls forgive me for any grammatical mistakes.
I need to some guidance from you all. I am at the verge of breaking down and I feel suicidal.
recently, I have broken up with long distance boyrfejnd. I never met him in real life. He lives in another country He is real as a person as we did video chats. He was a very nice guy over all.
I do suffer from anxiety and depression and overthinking and he always supported me with it I told my mother about him and my mother is very close to me so she decided to do a background check on him.. my uncle went to his house just to have a normal conversation.. so his father opened the door and he came out ( he had an exam that day and I did not my uncle was going to his house like that ) moment my uncle found out about the exam from him my uncle left by exchanging numbers with him.
later my uncle left his house and my bf shouted at me on the phone saying “ he doesn’t care about me right now “ “ he doesn’t give a shit about our relationship right now “ “ he thinks that I feel superior than him because my uncle asked one of their neighbours that what does his father and he does and the neighbour was unable to provide much information about them and my bf found about this question my uncle asked from the neighbour “ I thought he is ending out relationship. I kept telling I swear down I didn’t know my uncle was going to your house like that he still kept getting mad.. later he switched off his phone and I decided to break up with him.. thinking that I didn’t send my uncle to check on him like that. And my uncle didn’t create a scene at his house at all.. I understand he is not happy with my uncle turning up to his house like that but all my family wanted to make sure that this person am talking to is decent since we never met yet. After the break up he apologised a lot saying he shouldn’t have shouted at me as it wasn’t my fault. It took me some days to recover from his behaviour I decided to give him a chance but I just can’t forget what happened and my family don’t want to accept him anymore after the day he behaved with sk i decided to break up this time fully..
now I feel heartbroken, lost and suicidal since I was in love with him madly and I am still …I went through a lot in my life and I am scared that he might become more mad at me if one of my family member make a mistake and he will shout at me for it.. so I broke up :(
my family maybe they shouldn’t have turn up to his house like that but all they wanted to is do a background check on him.
My mother was very very positive about him before that incident now she is saying he is not right for u. If he can shout at u like because of that. What is he gonna do in future?
how can I recover from this ? I can’t focus on my studies, my job nothing
Pls help !
any advice would be appreciated