Feeling detached - fooled too many times?

[OrlaKc]

Married a few years with 1 young kid. Without getting into it, we have had a difficult few years, not all bad, some great times. However.. He has been awfully verbally abusive, unsupportive and threatened me physically in the past. Flash forward to now, we don't row anymore as I've lost interest in trying to change things, we've lived like housemates for so long that now he's changed his ways (for the most part) for the past 2 months, I still don't feel much towards him - no spark, residual distrust, etc. I go through the motions day to day with work/home life etc but the idea of trying to spice it up tires me.
I miss the excitement of the early days and wish I could have that with someone. What should I do? Please help. Thanks.

You don't row anymore because he shut you down by using aggression.

You are not allowed a voice in your relationship so there is no wonder you have detatched.

He is happy now you have been silenced.
You are not.

It's not been fair, it's not been equal.
Equality and a loving relationship will not occur unless you have a new partner who is not abusive.

I miss the excitement of the early days and wish I could have that with someone. What should I do

Find someone you can have that with. There's no need to stay where you are and there's no need to question your feelings. You're not happy, so you need to leave. That's it.

Any threats of physical violence should ve met with chucking him out. Time to gather all your strength OP and get your ducks in a row 💐