So I'm with someone of nearly two years and the past 6-8 months or so has been rocky..... and now I have unintentionally met someone that can fulfill the needs I am currently missing.
I live on my own and recently bought a new house, I had a tradesman in to do a couple of jobs and he took a liking to me, I said I'm with someone but he said he would take me out if things don't work out. Well, we haven't been getting on for a long time, we have both been under a lot of stress and take it out on each other and we broke up before xmas for about two weeks and during this time I decided to reach out to this other guy just to take my mind off the break up. After missing my partner we decided to get back together, communicated our issues and said we would both try harder and work on it. But then it always goes back to its old ways.
He also has a thing of liking pictures of girls on instagram, girls he actually knows and they are always really sexy photos which makes me feel insecure and when I confront him, he said I'm paranoid. I don't think he would ever cheat on me but I wish he didn't feel the need to show other girls attention... He's not particularly great with my child and doesn't want to spend time with her, he doesn't like walking my dogs with me, he only sees me at weekend and said he prefers being at his own home during the week... but aside from this, he is funny, loving, intelligent, hard working, he has so many positive attributes that I look for and I know if he changed just a couple of the things that upset me, that we would be suited together. This other guy has a child of his own similar to mine, so it was a breath of fresh air seeing how good his is with kids and how he would actually want to be involved with us as a package. He also wants to see me all the time, whereas my partner only really sees me twice a week because he's too busy. I'm not a needy person but after nearly two years I need more than just a weekend hook up.
My head is so confused... I wish I never met the new guy because now I can't stop thinking about 'what if' and I'm mad at myself for giving into the temptation, but I've never met someone that has kids as well and it's opened my eyes, is this a sign or am I being an idiot.. I'm a strong believer in making a relationship work when it gets hard but what if this is just never meant to be? One of those situations where you love someone but simply can't be with them? I feel like such a terrible person and I need to sort this out now before anyone gets hurt