hi all,
my partner is prone to real moods. they seemingly come out of nowhere but sometimes can be a reaction to something (things I would consider fairly small) and that will be it. he then goes off on a tangent of how much he hates his life, life is shit, it sucks and all the rest of it.
we have 2 young children. one who is 3 and the other who is 5 months, who was born very prematurely and has been in and out of hospital since. I have been trying to cope with my feelings around that and I got help from my GP so I tske anti depressants snd see a therapist once a week. even with all this going on, I feel like I tip toe around my partner and his moods. its never about our baby either - his favourite trigger is money. he is obsessed by it. he always says he has none but he doesnt earn a bad wage. when he inevitably runs out of money he blames the fact he has bills to pay but he still smokes fags every day.
I am not sure I want to stay but I have nowhere to go. I wanted to take my full maternity leave with my baby due to everything that has gone on but I really feel that I cant as it is thrown in my face if he feels like he is skint so I am going to go back in may now. I really dont want to be reliant on him in any way.
am I being unfair? I just feel like I have genuine trauma that I am going through (suffering with bad PTSD due to my sons extreme premature birth and everything that surrounded that and has been going on since) but I got help for it so I didnt treat my partner and my kids less than they deserve.
my partner just mopes about but it is only ever to me. he is fine when he is going out with his friends/brother. I don't get it.