Help me please

[KaidensMum12]

I posted a couple weeks ago about my partner of 17 years cheating on me.

I still can't get my head around it. I'm broken. I can't deal with this pain anymore. Iv got 2 young children relying on me and I just can't find the strength to be strong. I'm dying slowly inside. The pain of my heart breaking is awful. I miss him so much but there's no going back.

I had my eldest teach call me in for a meeting today to say he is struggling at school. I thought it was doing ok but his really not. His dad was his best friend. He sat there crying eating his toast this morning and said mummy please let daddy come home. I told him I have tried but it's not what daddy wants. I said it is sad for me to as Iv lost my best friend to, he told me to knock on his door and ask him to be best friends again then he can come home. Oh to be that young and innocent again, if only it was that simple.

My heart is breaking and I don't know which way to turn

I’m sorry this has happened and devastated you so much.
Your child/ren sound very upset so I’m afraid you have toughen up for them.
Your explanation that dad doesn’t want to come home is fine, don’t deviate from that, children need consistency in what they’re told.
But it’s time to start rebuilding your lives as a family unit. Do things together, movie night with popcorn, or days out at the weekend if your budget runs to it. Your time with your children can’t be to lament dad’s departure. Sad though it is that was his choice and he has to live with it.
Start living again with your children.

Would speaking to a professional help? This charity works with single parents and may help you get through this very tough time www.gingerbread.org.uk/

Sounds so tough. You sound like a strong and wonderful mum