Life on Hold

[Nouveaunew]

Oh wise Mumsnetters, what on Earth do I do? I broke up with my H over a year ago after a long history of breakups and makeups. I have felt so lonely and we continue to hang out regularly. My friend says I seem to be happy with just scraps. She’s right. But I can’t seem to let go. I’ve had loads of therapy and I know why I am this way but how to break this pattern and move forward is the tough part. Any ideas? I’ve missed out on so much already. I’d love to be happy without feeling responsible for my H. I feel like I could let myself be happy once he finds someone new. It feels like such a mess and i just can’t seem to let go.

Thanks

I caved … been hanging out since yesterday

Oh dear. 🙁

I know. I just came home and cried half the way. I just cannot seem to let go. I feel so terminally messed up … and the thing is -people think I’m not. I don’t put on an act at all but in work etc, I’m this confident person who people think is all organised and together ..but my life feels like a disorganised, chaotic mess.

Thanks to anyone for reading. I appreciate any replies as I’m too embarrassed to talk to friends about it at this stage after so many breakups and makeups