Leaving abuse

[PS78]

I've just left my abusive husband. I feel sad and guilty for it but also pity for him. He calls crying and pleading and threatening to kill himself. Sometimes I think f*+k him, he wasn't crying when he hurt me, but sometimes I sob uncontrollably and feel ashamed and angry at myself. I know he's telling me what he thinks I want to hear and in two weeks he'll be the same as he's always been. But why do I feel like the bad one in this? Why do I feel like leaving him is wrong and selfish?

I also had the grizzling, the suicide threats ( went on so long one evening about jumping off something I told him to get in the car I’d drive him there—- strangely, he changed his mind then)
You’ve had the strength to leave , you know he’s cruel, nasty and there’s no point in going back. He wants you to feel sorry for him because in his head it’s all about him.
Change your number, block him, ignore him. It’s the only way to gather yoyr strength and get yourself a better life.

He's trying to get you back under control by using tactics that worked in the past. You've done really well to leave him, you are not responsible for him or his happiness, just stay strong and remember why you are doing this, it will get easier.