Mental health

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I have been diagnosed with bi polar but been stable for a year. Last night I found a triangle mark on my thigh. I have been visited by orbs when I felt my worst, I just know they have been back. I can't explain it, I feel watched in my kitchen, they are definitely there. I feel I'm losing my mind, I know they are there. I get up in the morning and feel them it takes the energy away from me, I want to do normal things, get up, paint, cook meals but the energy from my back garden stops me. I feel like I'm going mad.

Have you told your doctor about this? It sounds like hallucinations or intrusive thoughts. You're not losing your mind op, but you do need support in order to work your way through this.

I think you need to mention this to your GP. I’ve got BPD and I once hallucinated a pigeon indoors when I was in a very acute state of anxiety, and I do empathise with the feeling of bad energy being around but in the gentlest way it is very unlikely to be orbs, and much more likely to be your mind playing tricks on you. You’re not going to be hurt by any bad energy from the garden. Do you take any medication? Have you got someone who could come over and sit with you while you call the doctor?

Ok so you may need to revisit your gp. It might be the bipolar or it might be the medication disagreeing with you. Paranoia and the feeling that something is out to get you can certaiy come with bpd bigtime.

Thay being said, if it'll make you feel safer though op then maybe look to stay somewhere else for a while and see if that makes you feel any better?

Perhaps saying a prayer when you feel scared might help, or sleeping with a religious text under your pillow.

You can also tell anything loudly to leave your home. It is your home and and you get to say who is and is not welcome, know that. There's no harm in saying 'back the fuck off outa MY home" loudly to thin air aferall...well unless the neighbours hear you xD

Above all op, be kind to yourself. You are not going mad. Sometimes the world just drives us a bit crazy. And sometimed, things happen that we cannot explain.

And people will probably tell me off for even remotely suggesting that it isn't all in your head. But, fuck them. Because for all we know, it might not be.

That doesn't mean that you don't need to see your gp. It's just, there's no harm in covering all the basis. Tell those basterd'n orbs who is boss!

Every single person in the whole world believes their own thoughts to be reality so no you are absolutely not losing your mind. Maybe call 111 as there is a MH option on the menu. Good luck OP

Please speak to your doctor, who will be able to help you. Feeling such anxiety is dreadful and scary for you. I definitely think you need help and support to start feeling better.

Thank you all so much for replying. I sought help and I was having a pscotic episode due to my prescription medication. I was taking sertraline 200 mg and it was obviously too much. I am now down to 5 mg and feel so much better. Thank you all so much for replying xxx

Are you on a mood stabilizer ?
I had a horrific time on sertraline and it caused me psychosis too. I was on 100 mg.
Glad to hear you got help

Just wanted to update, I'm off all meds now and have felt so much better. Still have moments when I feel I can't cope but importantly I ride it out. I go off and find a safe space, just me, and tell everyone I need to be alone. I think being alone, getting to grips with it myself and being allowed to be alone has helped absolutely. My being alone was going to a bedroom in my house, reading a book and genuinely having my family leave me alone for 24 hours. And no resentment for that. Just help and care knowing I needed that time,