I am so good giving advice to other mumsnetters when my own life is shite. i feel sorry for myself. my husband basically treated me by saying something bad twice in last couple of months.
we have exchanged contracts for a house so can't even think about leaving him, will be big financially loss and know for a fact for another five years fix mortgage i will be still living with him and feeling all that. On top of that dd is preparing for 11 plus.
There is no way out as it will be more stressful for me by leaving him rather than living with him . it's weird feeling. on top of that my parents , siblings in other countries so no support. He will never leave me , i think it would be emotionally better if he does , even i said multiple times if you are unhappy then leave but he wont.
Wish i can reverse time and erase that 21 September 2009 day from my life the day i met him online.
We argue on things like cleaning mostly , stay silent for few days and then shit goes back to normal. Sex is great.
Only thing I can leave from this relationship if i win a lottery.
Even i already thought and planned how to inform him after winning lottery. Smartly dressed in some sort of expensive car and say , its been fucking shitty living with you all these years, here are divorce papers