sexually assulted?

[MyLifeNow20]

I was in a relationship for 2 years. Never got our children involved, he didnt want to commit. Was quite happy with me going to his couple times a week.
We had drinks and dinner. I still have feelings for him now after being split up 8 months and have to remind myself.
He watched porn
He wouldnt let me go home one night until he had had a fumble and I felt helpless, this was after I had a family bereavment and was upset but he still persitted.
He tied me up and when i said un tie me he didnt.
Several times he said sorry he gets over excited.....

Yes. This is totally completely sexual assault. If he penetrated you, it's rape. He didn't get "overexcited", he made conscious choices to ignore the fact you were upset, the fact you wanted to go home, the fact you clearly stated you wanted to be untied, etc etc (cos I bet there's more). Time and time again, he made conscious choices to violate you, override your choices and ignore your rights. And he is so fucked in the head he thinks "overexcited' is a valid excuse - like that stops his brain working! Ffs.

Apologies mean nothing if the apologiser does not stop repeating the behaviour. That's what an apology is "I recognise I have done wrong and will not do it again." NOT "I recognise I have done wrong and will do it again, but I said sorry so shut the fuck up about it and forgive me until next time".

I'm sorry he put you through that. Would you consider therapy? It might help you break the trauma bond you still have 8 months later.

That is a horrible experience, I’m so sorry he did that.
Definitely sexual assault or rape depending on what he did. And totally indefensible.
What a scumbag. I don’t know if the police would or could take any action after 8 months so you need to look after yourself. Perhaps talking to someone at rape crisis as a starting point?