Hey everyone! So my 1st post......
I'm stuck in a marriage that has never been perfect and we most certainly have had our ups and downs. For 2 years now I've wanted to leave. For context we have been married 12 years and have a 6yo.
I admit to being unfaithful and hubs knows about it. We had counselling for it about 5 years ago and things were better for a while. Not anymore though. He is lazy, gets grumpy when the house is a mess or the clothes aren't washed but does very little to resolve that situation. He is at home all day (thanks covid!) Whilst I run my own company part time and have another job too so am out of the house a lot. Recently He has seemed to be making more of an effort and I feel bad for still wanting to leave. I've been asking for years for him to help more, but I think its too little too late. I feel guilty for still feeling like I want to leave. I feel trapped and don't know what to do. I care for him a lot but I'm definitely not in love with him. Honestly I don't think I have been since we've been married, it was just the next step in our relationship.
So, do I continue to stay and try to work things out for his sake? I don't think we are a good role model couple for our child to learn about from, should I try harder for them or cut our losses and work on a different path for our future