So, I'll try to be as short as I can. First things first, I still live with my parents... (ToT)
I've had kinda no social relationships so far. I had a group of friends during highschool, we rarely hanged out together and when we did, I usually was put off by what my parents could say. Time went on and I ended up alone, but not like, suffering for that. I simply preffered to be with myself let's say.
At college I met more people and ended up in a group. We've never met outside of the university, though and now remote classes and the fact that universities are closed have made everything harder, also because "my closest friend" lives kinda far and only moved here to study.
The point is that now I've met a guy through an app and I would like to meet up with him soon. But there's another "issue": I've recently found out I'm bi. I've never left the house to see other people from outside of the family, and that would mean a thousand of annoying questions. It seems I can't simply say, "I won't come to have dinner" or something like that.
To clear up a couple of things: everything seems to be in my mind. My parents aren't monsters, they are actually quite open minded. It's myself who makes up things in my mind and the main "monster" I've created (probably, not out of thin air, something must have to do with my parent's behaviour) has to do with them judging me and my actions. That's the main issue. And it gets to simpler things too, like whether I get a tatoo done or not, what would they think?, is that ok? Quesions like that arise...