Why is life rubbish?

[Unhappyf40]

I’m just unhappy, I don’t know why. I actually have it pretty good. Two amazing healthy dc, Good part time job flexible and well paid.
Divorced from abusive exh and now have a great bf who I live with and is everything I could wish for. He has two dc who are also great.
I have a lovely house, pets, supportive family and no money worries.

But it still feels shit. Like what’s the point? I’m miserable and often think I’m only alive because I don’t want my children to grown up motherless.

I know I sound ungrateful and I don’t want to feel this way at all. I used to feel lucky, like anything I wanted, I went out and got. I had a great career before children, paid off my mortgage in my 20’s so that I could be around for my dc whilst they were small

Why am I unhappy? I’m 36 now and my dc are 10 and 7. I don’t want them to ever feel this way

Well the obvious answer is you're suffering from depression - an illness

Go to the doc

Definitely sound's like depression contact your GP maybe try some mindfulness

There is no point really, it’s an accident of science that we are here. So that’s really quite amazing. You’ve just got to make sure you have a good time and make the most of it. I often have the same thoughts as in your OP. SSRIs really help!

We have had an incredibly boring couple of years. Especially with kids.
It is monotonous and the days take forever. I find.

But things are getting a bit better, slowly.
With your kids now or an age where they can entertain themselves you may soon have more time to do the things you like to do.

What do you like to do?

What car do you drive?
What shape is your house?
Where do you buy your clothes?
Do the answers to these resemble your life as an advert on prime time evening TV?

If so, then you have been mis-sold.

Re-evaluate your life...Now! For you are like......

wait for it.... creak, creak, computer working...

......Britney Spears

Get up and live. Dance.

We’ve all been sold this idea that life has a point and it’s our duty to do something profound with it: “live your best life”; “make each day count”; “unlock your greatness”; “reach for the stars”. But you’re really just another mammal who’s done some breeding, shuffling along the mortal coil. You don’t have to find your purpose or achieve greatness, you don’t have any sort of obligation to fulfil wonders. It’s absolutely fine to be mediocre and live a mediocre life - the vast majority of people ever to walk the planet will.

You may be depressed; though I’m never sure quite where we divide genuine medical depression and just feeling disheartened and shitty because we somehow believe we aren’t using life as best we could - which is really just a meaningless media sell. I don’t think as many people are actually depressed as think they are.

Teach your DC that being content with what they have, being mediocre, being able to find satisfaction in just being comfortable and seeing where life takes them, and they’re far less likely to feel miserable as adults than if they’re constantly feeling they have to strive both for material things and for achieving greatness and purpose.

Life isn't rubbish, comparison is the thief of joy. Find the things that give you a glimmer of happiness, concentrate on these and build up...
What you see on TV, FB is utter bollocks born of money making/ insecurity.