I am so easily manipulated

[Pegsonstrings]

Just that.
Back story is I grew up in dysfunctional family. My mum was is emotionally abusive and I was groomed as a child by a former headmaster and my mum failed to protect me when telling her of the abuse. I don’t think I will ever get over it.

I feel hurt by the lack of interest from my family. I moved to the UK many years ago and have flourished since. I have a great job, and finally financially stable after leaving a terrible relationship. But I feel so daft when my family is making comments about my life abroad, and my choices now, and feel I take on their views in order to keep the pierce.

Those of you in similar situation, what can I do, read and so forth in order to cut myself free from feeling so inadequate towards my family? And yes I have had counselling and it worked wonders but this is a leftover which I was hoping some of you wonderful lot might have some insight on? Thanks

I have no idea but I'd be cutting the family off
for starters

I feel awful for doing that and don’t think I could live with myself if I did.

I feel awful for doing that Why?

Perhaps this is what you need to explore with a counsellor. You suffered decades of abuse at their hands. Why would you feel guilty for protecting yourself by cutting contact with your abuser?

@Pegsonstrings

I feel awful for doing that and don’t think I could live with myself if I did.

Why? What would you feel it would say about you that you don't want to be true?

That'll be the crux of a bigger problem than this one, and the key to your happiness.