I don’t think I want this anymore

[Peanutbuttermandms]

OH.. I waited so long to meet someone, thought he was the one and his outbursts and his temper

Tonight just feels like it’s crystallised it in my mind that I have to go.

You sound so sad in your posts OP.

I know you know this, but just leave. As a pp said, just imagine how lovely, quiet and peaceful it will be back in your own home without him

Life is short.
Go now while you have somewhere you can go
Report to the police
He will not change for the better, he will get worse
Good luck

He sounds unhinged and dangerous. Get away from him before this escalates.

THIS IS ABUSE, you are in an abusive relationship, I spent 20 years married to someone who was exactly the same!
Finally left, best thing I've ever done, only wish I was brave enough to leave sooner. Please leave him and live a happy , calm peaceful life with someone who respects you.
Check out the "freedom programme" and a book by Lundy Bancroft, why does he do that. Both helped me immensely. Good luck but defo leave him x

I second Mylife's suggestion of The Freedom Programme @Peanutbuttermandms , you can do it online but being in a group can be better. They're doing a lot via Zoom. Even after you leave, it'll help make sense of your experience and help prevent it happening to you again. freedomprogramme.co.uk/

Also as she says, the Why Does He Do That? book. drive.google.com/file/d/0B9k39V5gkNBAQl95bjJpMHlSeDQ/view?resourcekey=0-XrmgiKR3fdecTZZbAjiLwg

Please leave if you can. He is showing you who he is. Lots of love to you ❤️.

Get out get out get out!!
This abuse will escalate.