Hi everyone,
I was recommended to join the 'stately homes' thread after a post but I can't seem to post on there..
I am and have always been the black sheep of my family, as the youngest, I've never been heard, listened to, encouraged or respected..
Issues I am working through with a therapist..
It wasn't until having my own child all of this came to light for me.. I didn't have emotional affection growing up and am making sure I try give my son all I didn't have in terms of emotional support etc.,
I was left to it as a kid and there are now major issues between me and my 2 siblings.. my elder brother has estranged from us and my sister along with my mum are very jealous of me.. really uncomfortable..
We try get on as adults all of us but there's an underlying tension and hostility..
Anyone experienced similar? I haven't confronted my mother, she's very difficult and often plays the victim or shuts down/blows up
My anxiety as an adult is through the roof, I have low self esteem and have never managed to hold down a job or be confident in myself..
I really need to step into my self my power now I've had my son.. if not for me, for him...