My mum walked out on my dad when I was 14. My dad bought me up from that point. He was a fantastic dad.
I tried my best to stay in contact with my mother . But you could tell she did not want to know me. It was always me who made the effort to contact her. When we spoke she had nothing to say. It was me making the conversation talking about school and general things. All I got was yeah yeah that's nice. Got to go now . And that was it. It went on like this for some time . I did not want to give up on her I thought maybe it was stress from the split. Slowly things just drifted. Although I did keep trying . When I told her I had a child all she said is oh that's nice. Her tone was like she could not careless. She had promised to see my son 9 months later when she still had not seen him I asked why. She said she's dog sitting for 'J' my older sister. And that she did not have to answer to me. She also has a good relationship with my other sister. My mother lives a mix of being in uk and abroad. And my mother gos to my sisters house although not often . And she gos to their home in the UK and abroad for a holiday they talk on the phone etc so I guess a standard relationship. She also has a relationship with my brother although I think its just phone contact.
I (know) I have never done anything wrong to my mother. She's always been very cold towards me I have no idea why. Anyway o realised I can't make her be my mum. I will probably never ever get any another's.
So now my partners mum is lovely. She has a lovely heart and is fantastic with my children. But I find it so hard to feel apart of it all. I find it hard to reach out to her. To just make regular contact see how she is . I feel like I don't really have anything worthwhile to say. I have a fantastic relationship with my own children. We are very close .
I want to feel like I'm apart if things but I don't. And I don't know why. So I'm thinking is it anything to do with how things were with my own mother.