I have posted recently before. I just need to someone to listen or see this from my point of view. Basically I feel like I’m having a third life crisis and is wondering if anyone else is in the same boat. Everything that I thought I wanted (kids, marriage etc) no longer interests me. My partner and I have a date set to be married in July and for over a year have been trying for a kid. Recently though, I have been avoiding sex at my fertile times to not become pregnant. I’ve had 1 chemical pregnancy in the last year and nothing ever since. I feel like a bit of a failure. For the last month or so I’ve been questioning if that’s actually what I want. I love my partner but part of me wants to escape and live on my own. I’ve never actually been on my own and I’ve only had long term relationships. If I told him all this, it would absolutely devastate him, but I can’t keep lying to myself. He’s sweet and kind (been together for 8 years) but I feel suffocated by him. He’s around constantly, we just sit there and watch tv, no plans, same routine and it’s boring me. (I have brought that up before with him and we did make changes for a bit but it didn’t last) I’m 31 and I feel like I’m already turning into my parents. I’ve thought to myself.. is this all there is? We rent together and have two cats. I just feel like I want everything to start over. I’m tired, lonely, sad and just can’t find any joy living with him anymore.