Hi
Thanks for reading.
Guess I'm fed up with my relationship.
He's very poor. It affects what we can do.
I met him.after I'd come out of a divorce and I've paid for eighty percent of our costs together.
He smokes medicinally but it gets on my nerves. He also a lot of nights has a few beers and I gave all that stuff up So it's something else we don't have in common.
We get along half the time but the other half his friends are there which I resent, watching horse racing or chatting. It's a small house and I'm not really social.
We have two dogs together. One was his when I met him and is old. The other we got a couple of years ago. She was living with me at my flat but has somehow ended up with him in the house and the other dog. When there's other people and the two dogs there's no room and I can't be bothered with it. So I feel there's no quality weekend and I just retreat by myself.
This sounds and maybe awful but a lot of the time I wish we weren't together. I'm happy by myself generally. I can't leave him though I don't think. The dogs need walking and his health isn't great so I have to do at least one a day. His disability has been stopped years ago now. He can't or won't follow their procedures to appeal so he's stuck and so am I, paying for him as well as me. I resent the lack of prospects/future/quality of life. I don't want to watch racing with people smoking and playing sport. It's not my idea of a good time.
I love the dogs but I resent them too. I wouldn't go round half as much were it not for them. We can't even cuddle without them barkibg and demanding attention.
Perhaps this is blunt but it's how I feel.
I'm not sure what I want in responses I feel ATM I have very limited choices here :(
It sounds awful but at least when we only have one dog life will be easier as I'll be able to have her at the flat (I think she wanted to live there to be with other dog) and I can only have one dog in my flat.