Feeling a bit panicked - Dv

[Appleofmyeye05]

I feel a bit silly posting this but I don’t really have anywhere else I feel I could turn.

I split up with my abusive ex in April last year and it’s been a rollercoaster of emotions, lots and lots of stress throughout.

Tonight I watched a documentary on women in domestic violence situations and their stories of escape and hearing what they had been through has brought it all flooding back to me and I feel a bit panicked, my chest is tight and my heart is racing a bit.

Fortunately, my own story wasn’t as extreme as the stories these brave women told but it was abuse none the less.

I’m upset that after all this time and all the time I’ve spent working on myself to become stronger and recover from my own experiences, that he’s still got an unworthy place in my mind and still has the ability to make me feel this way

It's really understandable that this triggered difficult feelings, it's just your brain doing a great job of what it's supposed to do

Like "huh remember that awful thing we went through? Need to make sure we don't have to go through that again and this thing we're watching now seems a bit like it so I'm just gonna try to warn you to from something we think is scary". Clever brain.

I'm sorry you went through that with him. I hope you're feeling ok.

Thank you.

It’s made me wish I never watched it for the way I feel now but I’m hoping I can use these feelings to heal even more. It brought back experiences and feelings I haven’t though about for a long time.