My DH has periods of poor mental health,currently really low due to a series of unfortunate events that have happened over the last few months .
I have spent our entire relationships trying to keep it all together and in turn now my mental health is knackered, I am due to start a course of CBT in the new year and have a prescription of AD's to pick up Monday .
If I try to talk about how I am feeling , his response is "yeah me too" "I've been like it for years" "you are not as bad as me" "no your not,you're just miserable" etc
I think some of it comes from the fact he has been allowed (not the right word ,I know !) to be poorly and I've always been the 'fixer'and now I'm crumbling he can't face that his safety net might be there anymore so it might come from a place of fear but where is my comfort or my allowance of sympathy?
Early this evening , I told him I was struggling a bit tonight , that I felt a bit overwhelmed with how much was left to do for Christmas and his response was "well do you feel like hanging yourself from the banister, cause I do, no ? Well shut up moaning" he won't and there is not threat at all behind his words but for goodness sake , I was talking about me !
He is on meds but we have had an awful lot of bad luck lately so I understand why he is low but he refuses to count his blessings and I'm out of patience . I don't even know what I expect to gain from writing this thread , maybe just some company , he is currently downstairs sulking because I refused to engage with the game playing and came up to bed .