Hello, I can’t believe I’m actually writing this. I’m in my 30’s. 8 years ago I got out of a very bad relationship with my ex (controlling behaviour.. I was with him for 8 years) I straight away going my current partner. We have been together for over 7 years and everything was great (so I thought) but lately I’ve just been feeling like I’m falling out of love. I know love is supposed to fade but I’m left with something I can’t put a finger on. We have been trying for a baby for over a year with one miscarriage… two of our cats died a couple weeks apart and we are also engaged to be married in 6 months. At the start of our relationship he got very Ill so I felt I had to be there no matter what. (He’s healthy now) I just can’t shake the feeling that everything that I thought I wanted.. marriage.. kids etc is not actually what I truly want. I’ve realised that I’ve never truly ever been on my own.. or lived on my own.. had normal experiences.. experimented etc. my partner is a beautiful person inside and out and I feel awful thinking this. He would do absolutely anything for me.. and that makes me feel more guilty and so so sad for him. Lately I’ve just been feeling like I want to be on my own. I’m not sure if it’s the miscarriage, lockdowns, deaths, disappointments making me feel like this, but I can’t help it and it’s eating me inside.