Anger issues, can anyone relate, I’m embarrassed about my behaviour

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I’m usually a calm person but when triggered by particular things I can get really angry. It’s an awful trait and one I have sought help for over the years with therapy and books etc.

I have been known to smash a glass or break something, throw things round etc. I feel like the only person in the world to do these things and that makes me feel embarrassed and not seek help.

I guess I just wanted to know how others have dealt with it, if there is anyone out there. I feel sad and fed up with my behaviour.

OP you aren’t alone. I can lose my temper but as with a pp it is usually when I don’t feel heard or something unjust has happened. I can relate it right back to my childhood where I wasn’t allowed to express negative emotions and had to shout to be heard. There was also DV at home. I can really relate to feeling very distressed after an outburst and feel very bad about myself. I am trying to walk away before I lose it but it is sometimes hard to recognise when it is happening. I also strongly suspect I have ADHD.