So I don’t know where else to turn really, I split with my husband a year ago, he was cheating, he left the home to move in with new GF, I do feel an odd sense of relief, he put me through a lot including domestic violence & making me feel like crap about myself & my abilities as a mum & wife.
But now I’m on my own with my kids I just feel a little lost, when they go to their dads I have nobody, I just sit in my bed or clean up & have a drink, I have only a few friends due to my exH & his controlling behaviour, but the friends I have do have partners so they don’t go out much, I go to bed most nights & just cry myself to sleep because I would like someone by my side eventually, someone to come home to me, make memories with & to actually hope I’m not that repulsive to the opposite sex.
Tried online dating no luck, got a new job in the hope of building up my confidence but I hate it, I’m the newbie always being pulled up on mistakes I’ve made so that brings my confidence down even more, everyone seems so pally as well & I’m left out.
My children say I don’t need a man, no I don’t need a man but would be nice have spend my free time with someone instead of being lonely & they don’t seem to understand that at all & when hear people at work talking about their partners it makes me feel even more left out!