Name changed. I'm so confused with my life atm.
Been with my kids dad for 13+ years. We have 2 younger children (6 & 1)
We don't have any huge issues, I think we might have drifted apart as we were together from a very young age.
He has never been overly affectionate, we don't lust after each other and we can go months without sex.
He was pretty inconsiderate when both children were born. With My first I was in hospital for 5 days no sleep, with a 3rd degree tear, he made me cook dinner when I got home and wouldn't help because he was tired.
and I don't think I have forgiven him, even though it has been many years.
About a month ago I started talking with a guy who lives thousands of miles away, we grew feelings and began an online affair.
My OH found out last week. And has taken it surprisingly well. I feel horrid and guilty, and ended things with the online guy. But I miss him now, and I'm wondering if things can ever truly go back to normal or get better.