Need support

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I'm getting divorced. I think (sometimes) that my husband is emotionally abusive, but then I doubt myself. I think I have made a massive mistake, breaking my family up. I'm so unhappy.
Does anyone have any advice? Will I ever be happy again because it doesn't feel like it?
I'm wondering about withdrawing the divorce petition.

He won't speak to me. I have sent emails begging him to try again, but no response.
I just don't want any of this. I just wanted him to love me.

Sorry to hear about your predicament - you are obviously unhappy.
First steps to sorting out any problem is to sit down and talk it out, and if your partner will not do that then there is a red flag. Are you clear about why you are divorcing? Once the wheels have been set in motion it can feel overwhelming and the temptation to go back into the unhappy relationship seems easier than facing the divorce. A long happy marriage is a joy, not without its ups and downs, but definitely more pluses than minuses. A long unhappy marriage is a prison sentence that can poison the family.
Try to be objective, try not to ask opinion from close friends, and try to work out if there is anything constructive that you both could do to work on a better relationship. At the end of the day, you both have to want to compromise.....I suppose that would give you an answer of sorts if no compromise is forthcoming.
All best wishes.