I’ve done a lot of research and believe the father of my baby is a narcissist. I’ve realised that when we first met he did a lot of future faking, love bombing and gas lighting. I fell pregnant by accident and he promised to be there for me but he was emotionally unavailable the whole pregnancy. It was constant discard and hoovering. His family , friends and work colleagues had no idea what he was like behind closed doors because he’d speak so proudly about the baby to them. I was and still am portrayed as unreasonable and well, crazy. When baby arrived, I decided to leave him for good but he kept hoovering me back in. It’s relentless, I feel like he will never stop trying to control and manipulate my life? Im heartbroken about it all because I Don’t remember the first 6 months of baby’s life, it’s all a blur because I constantly focused on him. I’m worried I haven’t been able to bond with my baby because I don’t feel an overwhelming love for baby. Has anyone else been in a similar situation?