I split up with my ex in April, it was an awful and traumatic breakup. We had been through his grandad killing himself and seeing him and didn't cope well with it all so after a massive argument and some awful words we split up and he moved out.
We worked together so still saw each other every day which was painful, some days we'd get on like nothing happened others we were hating each other again.
The physical attraction was still there's bf we'd flirt and mess about and we slept together a couple of times, the last time I fell pregnant.
I told him as soon as I found out and he didn't take it well, wanted me to (in his words) 'kill it' and threatened to kill him self if I carried on with the pregnancy and I would be ruining the lives of my 2 older children.
I ordered the termination pills, sat on my own in my room willing myself to take them so that I didn't ruin anything else between me and him but instead I sat crying, terrified.
I couldn't do it.
When I told him he said he was disappointed in me, I'm being immature and don't deserve to be carrying his grandfathers great grandchild child.
After this work became awful, his dirty looks and silent treatment broke my heart everyday.
Even after everything, the arguing, how he's treated me, what he's said, everything!
I still think about him constantly and worry about him all the time.
Why after everything can I not get over him??
Not sure anyone can answer but just needed to get all of this out