I'm 46 and My last relationship ended in June after almost 4 years (he proposed in Dec, fuck knows why?) It was very clear he didn't love me at the end (and I even question during due to the hurt I was caused), i was beginning to get the blame for lots of things like the lack of alone time he had even though we only saw each other maybe once/twice a week, things he wanted to do (although I never stopped him doing anything)....However I still can't get over him. I am absolutely heartbroken and I know he loves the fact he's done this to me...
He's done the 'grown up' thing and blocked me EVERY WHERE..... and he would be well aware that is the possibly the worst thing he could do... but again, the nature of his personality, he wouldn't care one bit.
Despite that, I REALLY wanted my life to be with him, I believed even though it was turbulent (until the last year when we didn't row at all) we were going to be together .... He promised me time and time again that he wouldn't do the things that hurt me... but he did, but none of that mattered because I just wanted him...
I think it's worse right now because my 76 year old mother is going through some quite serious health issues and I wish he was around ...
Ugh! Breakups never get any easier....
Any advice would be appreciated..
Thank you