I need to block him

[Torment654]

I understand it sounds pathetic but I need to do it for the first and last time.
I have to do this, I’ve always been scared but tonight’s another big kick in the teeth and I simply just can’t take any more disrespect.
Typing this, I’m embarrassed to give any further detail on how badly this man treats me. It’s as clear as day, he doesn’t even like me and uses me like an object.
Please spur me on.

Do it now. You will never ever regret blocking someone who hurts you.

He hurts me so fucking much every day .
My happiness resides on him loving me. It’s always temporary, he love bombs me.
Now im back to being thrown away and it fucking just hurts.

How did it get this low

Do you want tune in the exact same position in 6 month? A year? Isn’t your own company just fine .? Because you know it is you are fine, you need to expect good treatment THAT is what is you should demand.

Thank you. I can’t go on being treated like this. I still haven’t blocked him, I feel a gut wrenching loyalty. He’s put me through a lot and I can’t take any more.
Im stronger than this but im not me at the moment. It’s been a traumatic few years and I can’t keep accepting less than what I know deep down I deserve and this foreign world I’ve been thrust into.

I hear you. I’m in the same boat. I haven’t done it yet because it has broader implications (mutual friends etc) but I feel exactly the same as you. I’m torn between trying to call him out on his shitty behaviour, ignoring him (which he does so brilliantly to me) or blocking him. My gut knows the latter is best. But why is it so hard?! My advice to anyone else is just do it! If that’s what your inner self is telling you to protect yourself, then block away. Yet I understand how hard it is. It’s like there’s maybe that last little shred of hope. But let’s face it - there isn’t.

He's not worth it. Block him and carry on with your life.. one day you'll meet someone who loves you unconditionally not just temporarily. I know it's not that easy but you deserve better than that!

There isn’t littlebee. You are right.
Feeling this confused isn’t right.
This emotional rollercoaster that I’m riding is becoming cruel..the only end is to block.
I feel relief even speaking to someone because I couldn’t tell my friends. They’d be supportive but he’s never been nice to me so I couldn’t turn to them again.

Feeling confused is your soul’s way of telling you that you’ve had enough! Imagine a life free from the torment and ups and downs - an end to the cruelty because you took control of your own peace. You only need your own validation to do it - not his or your friends’. It might seem hard when you first do it - but stick to your guns once you’ve made the decision and bask in the relief. (Wish I could take my own advice haha!!) You’ll know when you’re ready - because you’ll do it.

It’s so hard to do when you’re a caring and loving person because it feels so cold. But you need to protect yourself because he won’t.

Would it help if you told yourself it was temporary? Could you give yourself a month to work on your self esteem free of his influence. Once you get out of the habit of hoping to hear from him, once the ping of your phone no longer holds significance, it will get easier to phase him out of your heart too. A month is long enough to make a difference but short enough to imagine yourself getting through it when it’s tough.

Just do it. Do it without drama, while you’re doing something else, like cooking or watching tv, et voilà, it’s done.

And yes, I agree that you’ll do it when you’re ready, so even if you can’t do it now, you’re one step closer to doing it because you know it’s necessary. I had an awful BF when I was younger and a very wise friend said the same to me, that it wouldn’t make a difference if they all told me to leave him. I’d do it when o I was good and ready. Sadly it took much longer than it should have done to get rid. But when I was ready I never looked back.

@SarahDippity

Just do it. Do it without drama, while you’re doing something else, like cooking or watching tv, et voilà, it’s done.

Good idea. And delete his number, and any other messages via SM etc so that you’re not tempted.