I'm stuck

[usersusan]

Hi everyone.
Hope everyone is doing fine.
I'll directly come to my story. I'm 25
In 2017 i met a guy and dell in love. We were in relationship until 2019 . 2020 was too complicated for us as we were from different religions. He watched me to get converted to islam. I'm an hindu. I didn't agree and waiting for him to accept me the way I'm. But he somehow found a girl from his religion and went in a relationship without telling me. When i came to know about this i was broken completely. It was over from his side. It took me so much time heal from it. After an year, 2021 I started dating a frnd of mine. Who knew everything about my past. He is very good person. We went out on dates and he proposed. I said yes to him . It took me three months to realise that I don't love him. I agree i did a foolish move. He loves me truly and he is so into me. Its been 9 months and I don't feel anything towards him. He is someone everyone wishes for. But i dont feel attracted towards him and I'm too afraid to come clean to him. My ex started texting me and he says he realised what he has done and wants to be in good terms with me. I'm not going back to him though. I rarely talk to him. My boyfriend is really true to me and he is seeing future with me. But i am not attracted and have no idea if i love him or not. I feel like i am stuck.. what should i do. I dnt wanna break his heart but i cant be like this. I still feel like there is someone out there for me.

It’s ok to end it if it’s not working for you - you don’t have to be in any relationship you don’t want to be. He may be hurt, but ultimately continuing into a marriage you know now you don’t want will cause much, much more heartache. You, and he, deserve to find the right person and as much as he may adore you, you’re not right for each other.

I guess your friend was a bit of a rebound relationship for you.

Call it off with him, it'll be kindest in the end. Marrying him would be a huge mistake for you both.

Stop all contact with your ex, as he's no good for you and even if you don't talk to him much, it's still unhealthy for you & will keep you stuck emotionally.

Please dont get in contact with your ex. A relationship would never work because there is still an issue with the different religions and he will expect you to convert. The way he ended your relationship was deceitful, disrespectful and cruel. He certainly doesn't have problem solving skills. I think you got with your current boyfriend on the rebound and you need to end this relationship. You need to do some counselling and find out who and where you are.