Hi, I've been with bf for 18 years, 2 daughters. I'm 37 and hes 38.
The past 4/5 years we have had a lot of rows, and although the past 6 months have been better, I hold resentment towards him. I don't enjoy sex & I don't feel emotional connection to him anymore.
He's an amazing Dad though & absolutely dotes over them.
But I just don't love him anymore. I think I've changed and grown apart from him. I feel unhappy in the relationship but at the same time I feel so scared of ending it as he's all I know.
I'm a people pleaser, I struggle to say "no' or communicate my feelings. I just don't know how I would possibly tell him I don't love him anymore.
It would break his and our childrens hearts if we split.
This is eating away at me and making me feel ill