I'm a very loving person and am very attracted to my partner of 10+ years. We have a child and our own home.
We've had our ups and downs, lock down hit mental health hard which really took its toll on our relationship. It wasn't easy but I did everything In my power to support him, get him the help he required, listen to him without judgement and give him space so he didn't feel overwhelmed. It took a while but we got through it and things have steadily improved between us.
He a very low sex drive, whilst mine is much higher. I'm very attracted to him and am up for experimenting an trying new things to keep things spicy. Ive bought toys, outfits and told him id gladly do anything he wishes. I've compromised a lot in regards to our sex life, going from about twice a week, to one every 2 weeks. All when he wants it.
He has just told me he doesn't know If he wants me sexually anymore, but doesn't want us to separate.
I'm heart broken. I'm a fiercely loyal person who won't cheat. I'm also a loving person who will shower those I love in affection and do anything for them. I'm sat looking at my partner now, very attracted to him but doing my best to remain defiant and hold back.
He's told me in the past that he could have me anytime he wanted and I would never say no.
I don't know if he really means, he doesn't want me anymore, as this type of behaviour is a theme with his MH issue. And he has said he'd be devastated if I went with anyone else. Or am I being a fool.
We sit talk, go out, raise our child etc. But if I try to become flirty or a little more familiar, I'm met with him withdrawing and funny looks.
I just want to be loved.