I was part of an awful relationship that ended a few months back. I have no energy to go into the details but bad. I've run a mile and removed him off everything but I have a dilemma about our text history. There's a year worth of texts of us messaging almost everyday. The content of some of them plague me. Sometimes I go back and read them and it brings back awful memories. But I'm scared he's going to try ruin me, my job, my friendships. I've heard nothing from him for weeks though but the fear is still there that he's going to try ruin my life because he has the influence to and he has it in him.
So I find myself wanting to delete every trace of this man forever so I can try forget and move on, but also feel like I need to hold on to all these text messages in case he ever tries to do anything. It's the only evidence I have minus my word that he is a nasty person. But I can't stop reading things over and over again and it's consuming me. I really feel like I'm going to be defenceless if I delete it all. I don't know what to do?